Not looking for sympathy. To be honest; I am fukking pissed. I will never understand suicide. To me its selfish and cowardly. I feel so sorry for their families as those poor folks get no closure or proper reasoning.
Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate the well wishes, its just kind of wasted on me. I’m angry. I want to kick these boys in the fukking face and ask them what the hell they think they solved.
It hurts to lose friends for no reason. If you are thinking of suicide, please call me. I will talk *s-wordte to you and spend days on the phone listeining to you. Hell, i’ll drive to wherever you are and take you out for beers and listen to your grievances. Just don’t be selfish.
You aren’t alone. We all have problems. I have more than enough *s-word I don’t want to remember; but I don’t let it dictate my life. Talk to someone. Talk to anyone. Hell, get a hooker and talk to the back of her head while she earns her pay. I don’t care. I won’t judge you. Just don’t be a cowardly piece of *s-word who won’t deal with issues.
I’m having a couple beers and grieving lost friends. I won’t toast them, but I will drink to their memories and reminisce the times we had.
