no need delete anything in regards to me
a decent part of what's going on with me relates to treatment by a string of mental health professionals after my prior practitioner became ill in the prime of life and had to give up the practice of medicine
I "saw" 5 different doctors without any explanation or referral beginning near the end of covid. All were phoners or video chats and it pretty hard to express that you are in real bad shape to a stranger in a little plastic box on your desk. biPolar is a real thing and another chainsaw maniac told me to look into it years ago, truly prescient he was. In any case a little over 2 years ago we were rear ended in traffic and my back pain began simply only to ramp up to am excruciating level where I was pretty much unable to do much of anything. coupled with the meds which put me constantly in the "low" phase of bipolarity, I really stopped doing anything. some days all I could do was sleep for 20 hours other time no sleep at all, I guess I told the therapist of the day that I didn't think the meds were helping at all and I didn't feel comfortable changing the until I had the back surgery that was now on deck after more than 18 months of insurance company delays and bad information. at some point she stopped making the 3 month check in calls and nobody responded to my call wondering what was going on. back in June I was finally lined up to get back surgery but... after the pre-surgical physical my blood sugar was too high for them to operate - AIC of 12
at that point I was relying 4 Aleve a day to keep me somewhat mobile, but tests showed my liver (or kidneys, I don't remember) were struggling and my PCP told me I needed take actual pain killers to spare the kidneys. I have always fought vehemently against any narcotics as I have a family tree history of abuse....
ill continue at some point after a nap
Dave