Mornin guys I've been pretty bummed mournin the loss of a loved one.Found out on Christmas Day my little cousin who was thirty four was shot in the head and his body was burned along with two others.Him and another died there one died the next day.One was a worker at a church he attended from what I can gather off their facebooks.I believe he was trying to straiten his life out.Could have possibly witnessing to the wrong people not sure.I got questions that I need to find answers for. Thinking about calling the Pastor of the church the attended.Feel bad for his three girls and two sons that hes leaving behind. Happened on the 17th memorial service was on this last friday.I would have like to have payed my respects and had the oppurtunity to be at the memorial service but now its just with my thoughts and my spirit.The last time seen him was when his dad my uncle passed away from the result of a accident at his work.He passed on his birthday two years ago.My family's pretty messed up not as close to my brothers and sister as would like since god got a hold of me thats my cost though.Bums me the F out why no one could let me know.I know there all into drugs and drinkin I've been takin out of that.I leave the door open call leave messages but to no return want nothing to do with me or mine.Pretty much been seperated from them other than one brother and my dad which I have regular contact with but didn't tell me of this?My youngest brother best man at our wedding I haven't been able to talk to him or see him in 4.5 years sucks.You guys that are close to yours cherish it cause it ain't like that for everybody.
