Scott, out thoughts and prayers are with you.
When I lost my dear grandpa, that shocking event took me down some dark and twisted pathways, something I was not ready for at the time. Looking back now, those dark and twisted pathways were a reconfirmation that we were super close, although at the time it did not seem like it.
First cut ever at the age of 13teen with a MAC605 and I pinch the saw on the very first try, he looked at me and said “that is not how you cut with a chain saw.” I am glad those fond memories never go away!
Stay strong through these tough times.
Mike